I think I'm depressed again...?!
Question: I think I'm depressed again....?
I have had a big history of depression and self harm since the age of 10 for a number of reasons. iv been to different types of therapy and to many different psychiatrists over the time period of 6 yrs up to my current age of 16. it seems to be an on and off thing. iv never had any real friends in my life. over the past 4 months iv been extremely down. I met a girl n she asked me out. i accepted. i wasn't really into her but i begun to to like her more and more over time. I fell in love with her unintentionally and she dumped me bang flat like that and i didn't get a reason why. a month later she contacted me through Msn n said she wanted to be friends. i went along with it because i thought she was trying to connect again. i hung around with her but she got sum1 else round which turned out to be her boyfriend. i was devestated but bottled it up. we had a major argument a week ago n now she h8s my guts. my 1 true friend and 1 love.
Iv been at english college for three weeks and havent met any1 and the course i applied 4 isnt what i expected. its dreadful. Lately iv lost all interest in everything i found enjoyable, completely lost me appetite and eat out of neccesity rather than want. I find no happyness in anything and iv begun to hate myself. who i am in personality and body. a few week ago i tried to overdose. I took a mix of 18 Ibuprofen and paracetamol tablets. my body threw em back up within an hour. my parents found out and think im a EMO nutter. they wanna chuck some more drugs down me(antidrepressants) to keep me happy and they hope my sadness will go away.
Eversince i tryed to OD iv turned to cutting to try to cope with my emotional pain. C.U.T.....Coping untill tomorrow.
So all in all. no friends now. no girlfriend.in a course that is terrible. parents are ignorant of my emotional pain. I Feel completely numb. I hate who and what i am. My only way to cope with emotional pain is cutting which i find is a suprisingly good release. To feel the pain and see my own blood spill because i know i deserve it for being me.
Any suggestions.?Health Question & Answer
Iv been at english college for three weeks and havent met any1 and the course i applied 4 isnt what i expected. its dreadful. Lately iv lost all interest in everything i found enjoyable, completely lost me appetite and eat out of neccesity rather than want. I find no happyness in anything and iv begun to hate myself. who i am in personality and body. a few week ago i tried to overdose. I took a mix of 18 Ibuprofen and paracetamol tablets. my body threw em back up within an hour. my parents found out and think im a EMO nutter. they wanna chuck some more drugs down me(antidrepressants) to keep me happy and they hope my sadness will go away.
Eversince i tryed to OD iv turned to cutting to try to cope with my emotional pain. C.U.T.....Coping untill tomorrow.
So all in all. no friends now. no girlfriend.in a course that is terrible. parents are ignorant of my emotional pain. I Feel completely numb. I hate who and what i am. My only way to cope with emotional pain is cutting which i find is a suprisingly good release. To feel the pain and see my own blood spill because i know i deserve it for being me.
Any suggestions.?Health Question & Answer
Answers:
OMg! That is terrible! The girl is so bad! I feel bad for you... :(Health Question & Answer
ah, don't fret i'm EMO i chose to be that, and if you get down find something that makes you happy.Health Question & Answer
dont worry, everyone is an emo at least once their life :PHealth Question & Answer
I suggest you find God and let him tell you what to do.Health Question & Answer