Is this psychosis should i be concerned ?!
Question: Is this psychosis should i be concerned .?
I have been doing some thinking about my life as i want to change. I am receiving help from my community mental health team. I have been diagnosed as having recurrent depressive disorder, low self esteem and anxiety but i have thought for a long time that there is more to my illness.
In may i had a 'breakdown' could not function, sat in a dark room crying, self harming and wanting to die. Lonely, empty, and very lost. This lasted one week.
In july had another 'breakdown'. Crying, lonely, suicide attempt, self harming, ran away, even though i was there it felt like i wasn't. I could see people but it was blurry, very slow if someone spoke to me it took a few minutes to realise before i could answer. This lasted one week.
In october i had 3rd 'breakdown' crying, lonely, suicide attempt, self harming, i was hullicinating, seeing evil spirit which would make me freeze so i couldn't move. loss from reality i was there but not there. This lasted two weeks.
During these 'breakdowns' my moods would be up and down but only had 3 severe ones where i was a cause for concern. At the time i couldn't see that i was bad but now i am worried if i get another one. Does this osund like psychosis.? I am going to speak to my nurse about this but wanting opinions first. During the 2nd one i was assessed for bipolar but as i didn't get manic moods they did not think i was. Please help me, i just want to get the right medication and start recovering.Health Question & Answer
In may i had a 'breakdown' could not function, sat in a dark room crying, self harming and wanting to die. Lonely, empty, and very lost. This lasted one week.
In july had another 'breakdown'. Crying, lonely, suicide attempt, self harming, ran away, even though i was there it felt like i wasn't. I could see people but it was blurry, very slow if someone spoke to me it took a few minutes to realise before i could answer. This lasted one week.
In october i had 3rd 'breakdown' crying, lonely, suicide attempt, self harming, i was hullicinating, seeing evil spirit which would make me freeze so i couldn't move. loss from reality i was there but not there. This lasted two weeks.
During these 'breakdowns' my moods would be up and down but only had 3 severe ones where i was a cause for concern. At the time i couldn't see that i was bad but now i am worried if i get another one. Does this osund like psychosis.? I am going to speak to my nurse about this but wanting opinions first. During the 2nd one i was assessed for bipolar but as i didn't get manic moods they did not think i was. Please help me, i just want to get the right medication and start recovering.Health Question & Answer
Answers:
There is a type of bi polar that doesn't have the manic swings but it's hard to find information about it.
Can you see an actual Psychiatrist.? He would probably know what's up and be able to fix it or get you started on fixing it.
I hate to say this but some of your symptoms sound like schizophrenia, which people can have in varying degrees. The hallucinations, the freezing, those are schizophrenia symptoms. People with schizophrenia don't always constantly have symptoms. The disease my leave for a while then with stress come back. Depression is one of the major symptoms (not sign but symptoms) of schizophrenia. also, schizophrenia has a very high suicide rate and it comes on in peoples mid 20's. I'm not saying you have it, but you wanted feed back and opinions, and all we can do is read what you read and give honest feedback based on what we know so far in life. This isn't personal advice, you seem like a very very nice person.
I'd seriously see a Psychiatrist though, you've tried to kill youself way too many times and you need to find out why you're doing that and have these breakdowns. Because the next time you try you might succeed and even though I don't know you in real life you seem like a very nice person and I'd miss your answers on here, and I'm sure a lot of people would miss you in real life.Health Question & Answer
Can you see an actual Psychiatrist.? He would probably know what's up and be able to fix it or get you started on fixing it.
I hate to say this but some of your symptoms sound like schizophrenia, which people can have in varying degrees. The hallucinations, the freezing, those are schizophrenia symptoms. People with schizophrenia don't always constantly have symptoms. The disease my leave for a while then with stress come back. Depression is one of the major symptoms (not sign but symptoms) of schizophrenia. also, schizophrenia has a very high suicide rate and it comes on in peoples mid 20's. I'm not saying you have it, but you wanted feed back and opinions, and all we can do is read what you read and give honest feedback based on what we know so far in life. This isn't personal advice, you seem like a very very nice person.
I'd seriously see a Psychiatrist though, you've tried to kill youself way too many times and you need to find out why you're doing that and have these breakdowns. Because the next time you try you might succeed and even though I don't know you in real life you seem like a very nice person and I'd miss your answers on here, and I'm sure a lot of people would miss you in real life.Health Question & Answer
Something that mental health people generally don't believe in is a spiritual cause for mental illness. If you say that an evil spirit is attacking you, they call it psychosis and hallucinations. But it could in fact be the case, that an evil spirit is to blame.
To fight mental illness, it's best to fight it on three different levels--the supernatural (spirit), the physical (body) and the mental (mind). All are interconnected. For the body, exercise and good eating habits are a great help to the brain's chemistry. For the mind, counseling, talking to others, and group therapy can help.
But the spirit is the most important of all, because it is the deepest part of us. Only Jesus Christ can heal the broken spirit of man. If you want to know him and the power of his resurrection, say a simple sinner's prayer to receive the free gift of salvation: "Dear God, I know that I am a sinner, and that I am cut off from you. Please forgive my sins. I believe that Jesus died for me on the cross. I believe that he rose from the dead and is coming again some day. Please give me the gift of the Holy Spirit to guide me and protect me all the days of my life. I renounce Satan and all his works. I break any ties that I have with the spiritual realm of darkness. I ask for angels to be sent to keep me from all harm. Teach me to serve you and live for you. Give me the grace to do good for others and to help those in need. All this I ask in the name of Jesus, Amen.
It also helps to memorize and speak some Bible verses:
"The joy of the Lord is your strength"
"Delight thyself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
"God does not give a spirit of fear, but of power, and love and a sound mind."
"Jesus went about doing good and healing all who were oppressed by the Devil."
Your friend in Christ, Nick
I would be dead if it weren't for the love of Jesus. He has always healed me or given me the strength to endure when I couldn't bear life anymore.Health Question & Answer
To fight mental illness, it's best to fight it on three different levels--the supernatural (spirit), the physical (body) and the mental (mind). All are interconnected. For the body, exercise and good eating habits are a great help to the brain's chemistry. For the mind, counseling, talking to others, and group therapy can help.
But the spirit is the most important of all, because it is the deepest part of us. Only Jesus Christ can heal the broken spirit of man. If you want to know him and the power of his resurrection, say a simple sinner's prayer to receive the free gift of salvation: "Dear God, I know that I am a sinner, and that I am cut off from you. Please forgive my sins. I believe that Jesus died for me on the cross. I believe that he rose from the dead and is coming again some day. Please give me the gift of the Holy Spirit to guide me and protect me all the days of my life. I renounce Satan and all his works. I break any ties that I have with the spiritual realm of darkness. I ask for angels to be sent to keep me from all harm. Teach me to serve you and live for you. Give me the grace to do good for others and to help those in need. All this I ask in the name of Jesus, Amen.
It also helps to memorize and speak some Bible verses:
"The joy of the Lord is your strength"
"Delight thyself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
"God does not give a spirit of fear, but of power, and love and a sound mind."
"Jesus went about doing good and healing all who were oppressed by the Devil."
Your friend in Christ, Nick
I would be dead if it weren't for the love of Jesus. He has always healed me or given me the strength to endure when I couldn't bear life anymore.Health Question & Answer
umm....
I really don't know. I suppose it would depend on whats triggered those 'breakdowns'. I think you could have a recurrent brief depression that brings on psychotic undertones, like the delusional thinking, and the rest could just be your personality - not everything is medical, right.? Or maybe you have schizo affective disorder depressive type.? Or you might keep 'breaking down' because whatever in you life that triggers the breakdowns still happens or is still there. My best advice would be to check into a mental hospital so you can have proper therapy and medicine. To me (and I'm no expert) you sound like your not fully 'breaking down', you just let yourself 'slip up' each time it gets worse and worse so you've never propperly recovered from your last "crash", if that makes sence.?
Anyway, best wishes!Health Question & Answer
I really don't know. I suppose it would depend on whats triggered those 'breakdowns'. I think you could have a recurrent brief depression that brings on psychotic undertones, like the delusional thinking, and the rest could just be your personality - not everything is medical, right.? Or maybe you have schizo affective disorder depressive type.? Or you might keep 'breaking down' because whatever in you life that triggers the breakdowns still happens or is still there. My best advice would be to check into a mental hospital so you can have proper therapy and medicine. To me (and I'm no expert) you sound like your not fully 'breaking down', you just let yourself 'slip up' each time it gets worse and worse so you've never propperly recovered from your last "crash", if that makes sence.?
Anyway, best wishes!Health Question & Answer